Well, how often do we wonder what all we have achieved till now, how did we manage to achieve that, did that effect someone and how?, was it a hard-work or we just got lucky?
Well, generally people just live the moment and don't look all these things. Last few days have been so, that I was made to actually think a lot about how did I manage to survive till here. In fact if someone asks me what would be my achievements in life, I will not have to think a lot. Coz there are none.
The first time probably I was happy in life with real sense of achievement was when I scored a good percentage in my 10th Std, coz nobody expected me to. See, now when u do something, when nobody else trusts you, then is a moment in your life where you can proudly show your middle finger in American style and say - I did it U........ Go get some AIR. ;)
Well, the achievement was everybody was so happy that I can't even explain and I guess it was hard work for the first and the last time in my life. :P
Next - mmmmmmmm.. Its actually what I count as the biggest achievement of my life and it would remain so, as I don't see any miracle happening now.
The story goes back to May 2006, I joined a coaching institute to prepare for CAT. Well, so did everybody else as if this is the only time when MBA colleges are open for admission and will shut down after this. In India its called 'Bhed Chaal'. One successful person will narrate his or her story, here or there and every Tom, Dick and Harry would like to be an MBA. Don't even think less than that. Future CEOs, my Ass. Anyways, back to the story.
So, there I found the most beautiful heart in the world. The girl so nice, innocent, sweet and with the most wonderful heart. And trust me I am not over-hyping something. She was the type of girl everybody would love to be friends with. And I, son of a gun, fell for her. It was a task to make a small town girl fall for a jerk like me. Well, I never planned to tell anyone about my feelings for her and definitely not to her. She became my very good friend and to tell her about my feelings after that, would ruin everything.
For once in my life I felt there is someone for whom I could do just anything. Well, finally things took a big turnaround and she somehow came to know how I used to think about her (which again is interesting story). Well, she was furious of course. I managed to escape the assault by saying Sorry. Now the task became difficult. But for once fathers and Mothers of Luck showed there mercy on me and managed to say to her - "Will you wait for me for two years, after which I will get a job and come to your parents to ask them to marry you to me?" Guess what, the most lovable person I have ever met, said YES, I Will. It took sometime but it happened. And I really proved myself a son of a gun. The day was November 10, 2006. The day after my birthday, which I count the most beautiful day of my life. Then I came to my college and she went to her. Everything was fine. Two years passed just like that. I got the job, so did she.
Now, the favorite part of the story, which I am sure everybody will love. The time was to tell my parents that I like a girl and I want her as my life partner. Well, I did, (This part was scary and to my surprise went very smoothly), And they also somehow agreed to it provided her parents are OK with it. Now, her parents were not. She told me to do something and I, 'the jerk of the jerks' just laughed off. Didn't even bother to think. Just let the things happen the way they were. And then came the day which ended the most beautiful period of my life. Three years of happiness ruined in one single day. She got engaged to another jerk which I hope is better than me. Now, you might wonder where is the achievement. Well, the achievement is I couldn't do anything and just let her go and proved myself to be a biggest looser. Ironical but, this really is an achievement. Killing the trust of someone who loves you like anything and above all trusts you on their life. Just letting such a girl go, who would have given her life for you without a inch of pain is the biggest achievement. It pains a lot to even think that you betrayed someone who trusted you blindly, but probably I didn't deserved it or she deserved something better.
People tell me cut it off, lessons learnt, don't take it your head. Well, I know all this shit. But when someone is just so close to you that she / he becomes your morning alarm, lunch time dessert, evening snacks and the dinner sweet dish, its almost next to impossible to stop thinking about them. Well, it was March 29th when I can proudly say I proved myself the BIGGEST LOOSER. Don't think I wrote this post coz I was mentally upset or emotionally broken, nothing like that. I am as happy as I ever was and would be like that way. Its just that I realized how often do I misunderstand myself.
How often does that happen to you? I bet never...........
Well, generally people just live the moment and don't look all these things. Last few days have been so, that I was made to actually think a lot about how did I manage to survive till here. In fact if someone asks me what would be my achievements in life, I will not have to think a lot. Coz there are none.
The first time probably I was happy in life with real sense of achievement was when I scored a good percentage in my 10th Std, coz nobody expected me to. See, now when u do something, when nobody else trusts you, then is a moment in your life where you can proudly show your middle finger in American style and say - I did it U........ Go get some AIR. ;)
Well, the achievement was everybody was so happy that I can't even explain and I guess it was hard work for the first and the last time in my life. :P
Next - mmmmmmmm.. Its actually what I count as the biggest achievement of my life and it would remain so, as I don't see any miracle happening now.
The story goes back to May 2006, I joined a coaching institute to prepare for CAT. Well, so did everybody else as if this is the only time when MBA colleges are open for admission and will shut down after this. In India its called 'Bhed Chaal'. One successful person will narrate his or her story, here or there and every Tom, Dick and Harry would like to be an MBA. Don't even think less than that. Future CEOs, my Ass. Anyways, back to the story.
So, there I found the most beautiful heart in the world. The girl so nice, innocent, sweet and with the most wonderful heart. And trust me I am not over-hyping something. She was the type of girl everybody would love to be friends with. And I, son of a gun, fell for her. It was a task to make a small town girl fall for a jerk like me. Well, I never planned to tell anyone about my feelings for her and definitely not to her. She became my very good friend and to tell her about my feelings after that, would ruin everything.
For once in my life I felt there is someone for whom I could do just anything. Well, finally things took a big turnaround and she somehow came to know how I used to think about her (which again is interesting story). Well, she was furious of course. I managed to escape the assault by saying Sorry. Now the task became difficult. But for once fathers and Mothers of Luck showed there mercy on me and managed to say to her - "Will you wait for me for two years, after which I will get a job and come to your parents to ask them to marry you to me?" Guess what, the most lovable person I have ever met, said YES, I Will. It took sometime but it happened. And I really proved myself a son of a gun. The day was November 10, 2006. The day after my birthday, which I count the most beautiful day of my life. Then I came to my college and she went to her. Everything was fine. Two years passed just like that. I got the job, so did she.
Now, the favorite part of the story, which I am sure everybody will love. The time was to tell my parents that I like a girl and I want her as my life partner. Well, I did, (This part was scary and to my surprise went very smoothly), And they also somehow agreed to it provided her parents are OK with it. Now, her parents were not. She told me to do something and I, 'the jerk of the jerks' just laughed off. Didn't even bother to think. Just let the things happen the way they were. And then came the day which ended the most beautiful period of my life. Three years of happiness ruined in one single day. She got engaged to another jerk which I hope is better than me. Now, you might wonder where is the achievement. Well, the achievement is I couldn't do anything and just let her go and proved myself to be a biggest looser. Ironical but, this really is an achievement. Killing the trust of someone who loves you like anything and above all trusts you on their life. Just letting such a girl go, who would have given her life for you without a inch of pain is the biggest achievement. It pains a lot to even think that you betrayed someone who trusted you blindly, but probably I didn't deserved it or she deserved something better.
People tell me cut it off, lessons learnt, don't take it your head. Well, I know all this shit. But when someone is just so close to you that she / he becomes your morning alarm, lunch time dessert, evening snacks and the dinner sweet dish, its almost next to impossible to stop thinking about them. Well, it was March 29th when I can proudly say I proved myself the BIGGEST LOOSER. Don't think I wrote this post coz I was mentally upset or emotionally broken, nothing like that. I am as happy as I ever was and would be like that way. Its just that I realized how often do I misunderstand myself.
How often does that happen to you? I bet never...........
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