Dear Sir, with due respect...

Dear Sir,

This is an open letter to all those ass hole bosses (esp this one, you now who) who think that if they are handling a team they have somehow got a right over their sub-ordinates that they can treat them in anyway they can or want. You may think it in your head, but we are not your bitches & I for sure ain't gonna take this shit no more, Dear Sir, with due respect!

You might feel orgasmic in some ways when you shout at one of us poor souls thinking you are doing some major nuclear shit, but all you are doing is soothing yourself by thinking about your imaginary clit and your finger rubbing it hard, 'coz lets face it, you don't have balls, Dear Sir. I mean I hope that made it clear that you don't have a dick, by which way you are no man, Sir. You are just an imbecile SOB. I wonder just a month back you pretty confidently asked me if I knew about your past, I din't know and for lord almighty, I do not even want to go there Sir. Haven't heard anything good from anywhere in this globe (atleast wherever I know people), and you speak of your equity. Well, if it opens your eyes pls let me tell you, Dear Sir, every fucking helpless bastard in your team has got pretty mouthful to say to you. You talk of equity which is built on lies. At least I can run down on half your things and prove you are just a Sham. You may have gathered contacts, yes, it is expected of you at this stage of your career, but Sir, come on, all that is just on face value. I hope & really wish these so called shareholders of your personal equity do not get to know about any of your fradulent claims that you make. Otherwise your stock will probably fall even further down that dirty drain, in which you claim some of us might be trying to get into Just coz, you know, we are not serious about our careers (according to you alone). And then you talk about our equity and even have audacity to lie about us on our faces. WOW!!

You always say you fighting a lone battle for all of us. Oh please, who do you think we are, hand made sand carvings that we will just break if not for you. We were sailing pretty smoothly before you came along. Never on calm waters, neither on a cruise, but we were sailing, or lets just say floating. But no, you sir, came & changed the entire dynamics. Instead of, may be, hitching a new ride, you jumped on with us and soon started digging holes. Now since you felt that wasn't enough, you started to make a plan to slowly kill the captain of the ship. Its been years now, that captain got down off the boat and they have sailed to higher seas, but no Dear Sir no, you are still on about how they suddenly out of the blue started putting bullet holes in the boat they were on while there were many still riding. You keep saying we needed captain like them, yes would beg to agree to here. You are right for a change and for only about this. Yes, that captain was better. They may have been pretty highly ranked guys but they were managing the show somehow or the other but it has been down slide since you took over. Hell, it became bumpy ride even before you took over the reigns, that's how your presence affected all of us. I will jump into shark tank and won't even blink if there is one more passenger who will even imply to not to agree with me, forget about even saying it.

Lets c, I have done nothing in last many years (as per your claims, which have been going on for many more years). Dear Sir, can you pls let me (or us) know where do you eat your shit from. Seriously dude, you are high on some mighty shitty dope. Lets not even talk about last few years. Lets just talk about last one year. I did something, YES I DID, my portfolio did not de-grow, but you still keep playing your old fucking rack of cassette in same shitty stereo of yours, that I did nothing. Dear Sir, with all due respect again, lets talk about your fav guy for whom you are trying tooth & nail to get something done for. The one who, (Lord pardon me for saying this), dint even know how to spell RTGS till sometime back (Yes Sir you heard that right, he used to mention just R, just a Caps fucking Lock R in the mails). That poor soul was surprised to know I did something. It took him few seconds to get back & ask me again are you serious. And I said yes sir, sure I am. Don't worry I am not gonna go & screw it for you. You pls go ahead and take the hikes, the bonuses, the promotions. I have never asked for it, I will never ask for it. Well at least one thing I know for sure than probably all others, to stay in AUKAAT and for sure to be just quite when YOU are presiding over judge & jury's seat. I would even agree to all that but you really go below the belt when you start with your I WAS GREAT BACK IN DAYS AND YOU ALL ARE EATING OF WHAT I SOW. I mean seriously WTF!!! Once again, I really wanna meet your dealer, pls. I have never tried marijuana or any other drugs, but I really wanna do it this time just to know. I am sure there is this or you are an abso-fucking-lutely a pshycopath.

Lets talk about our day to day business. We are NOT your friends. No sir. We are NOT your bothers (Hell No, for sure). No Sir, with due respect of course. So try and give us one of your another shitty pep talks by saying all that, while behind everybody's back you pick n choose your prey for the day and just go for the kill. Let me tell you, you asshole. In an open jungle when tigers/lions go for a kill they also follow the prey for sometime to find it in a best place to kill and then pounce on them, but you sir probably are one those cowards, who likes to attack from behind. Don't travel, don't claim, dont expense, dont fucking shit without asking you. Are you for real!! You claim in front of others you are the best, you have been shameless in saying that in front of everyone while we are around and sadly we always noded, forget about giving an inch of gratitude you just even cant keep quite. Hell, someone would have done a favor for you in the morning will fall prey to your shit by EOD. How is that even possible is Beyond Me..!! Hell, I still remember when you used to say that we need to tell others that this happened because of you. WTF!! & you talk about being the one doing something for us while all along we are the ones doing and cleaning your shit..

We were always a bucket with a hole at bottom trying to hold it together but no Sir, you wanted the hole to look bigger, hell you wanted this whole shit at another level and then somehow magically close it. Just look at what you have done you fucking moron. We never understand why the shit never goes into your head. Are you fucking blind, or may be deaf for sure. If both of them are working all right I am sure the only case we are left with, is, you Dear Sir, again with all due respect, are mentally retarded. You cant take a joke, you cant have a healthy conversation without making it go south & into a shit-hole, hell you cant even take an off duty curricular activity lightly. You have managed to fucking shit on that also. Well done, Dear Sir, A Salute on One Leg!

Lets come to you latest fav these days. The guy who suddenyl seem to have taken the WORLD BY STORM and who you think have done wonders in couple of months while I couldn't do in fucking ages. I would agree on that but at least explain this to me, who in the hell takes a food away from an already poor soul and gives it to new bloke who has come full and may not be hungry. Yes Sir, I know you conspired with (your other illiterate fav), I knew it from day one. Well let me not blame you there, probably my fault. I should have been more blunt, but I just spoke only once & did not even refute. May lord forgives me for this, he knows and I know, I regret it, every day. Dear Sir, you claim he knows certain set of ppl, but how does he know them, is never a mention. Wait wait, you won't want to hear that, would you now? you change your stance every fucking second. Hell you don't even remember what you said to same person within a span of few minutes how do we expect you to remember anything worthy of noticing about us, when you already have a head filled with shit & horse's semen. You psycho-mentally-retarded-blind fucktard.

Your fav dialogue these days, wake up, high time. Well I am putting you on a notice, Dear Sir. Its a challenge, and may lord gives me strength and shows me some mercy, I will be out of sight, your hearings and everywhere. May our paths never cross in any life again. Chow..!! May you keep prospering in the world of lies you have so SMARTLY built up for you and may the guys who are sucking your dick day in & day out remain on growth trajectory too. Take Care You Chut..!! What a Cunt of highest Level...

#EndofRant. #PeaceOut.

FlashBacks of a Bachelor - Part 1

Well, there are times when you feel something from inside and you are so sure that this cant go wrong and world around you will change for good, that is when you suddenly wake up and realize you were asleep & just dreaming. Hang on, not just this. You are not alone. Heck No! When did this happen? Just last night I slept on 'MY' bed with 'MY' pillow cuddling inside 'MY' blanket. So what the F.C.U.K. happened in just about 8 hours.

Oh God! I need to fix this thing. Shall I go back to sleep, I wonder. Am I still dreaming. There is a person sleeping next to me, this can't be real. Did someone drug me to eternity or am I on completely different planet. The moment of shock takes little time to sink in. "Take some water" - I say to myself. After a glass of water, things start coming back. No, I wasn't alone last night, yes the person sleeping next to me, right now, was with me last night as well. Who is she? (Still wondering). Suddenly a voice from other room comes- "Wake up Man! How long will you be sleeping? Bring your wife also with you. Its about time"

"OK!" I say. Wait! What? What did you just say? Bring who with me? WIFE! OMFL, what in the world did I do bad? I am married overnight, or is it just one of those ads from makemytrip.com or Fanta where the subject in the question is not able to remember what happened with them. But I am not able to re-collect any of the wonderful memories of Thailand or Bangkok or Switzerland (as in the ads)? If I am married I might as well have gone for a honeymoon? Right? Well, a valid question.

I come out of my room. A weird sense of happiness & freshness all around. "Haan Beta, did you sleep well last night?" comes a sound from behind. My Grandma. "Well, yes I say". Shall I ask her who is the person sleeping inside MY room on MY bed. Lots of things going around in my mind. Suddenly the heart and mind are arguing over millions of possibilities of what kind of White Pigeon's Brown crap I have got myself into. Is this the price you pay for oversleeping? Damn, I should have listened to my parents from very beginning when they used to tell don't sleep too much. Early to Bed Early to Rise, I swear, from Now on but pls tell me I am still sleeping. This is not true.

And before I could say something - "So, Wassup bro! Must have slept nicely. Pleasant weather, not alone anymore" comes the voice from the steps in front of me. Oh Ghost, my sister. What is she doing in this dream? Is this some kind of test if I can be hypnotized? So to whosoever doing this, pls you have been successful. I have been hypnotized and piss scared as well. Get me out of my sleep. I rush back to my room, to find the bed empty. "Oh! What a relief" - I say to myself. I get into bed so that I can wake up from my dream.

Suddenly I am awaken by a loud noise of Pressure Cooker whistling at its peak as if it has to take all the bloody steam out just now itself. "So, that actually was a dream, Thank God!". Before I can even have a thought of thinking something else, someone walks into the room. "Good Morning! Had a long sleep, eh? Its 12 o'clock dear. And you still don't look like getting up". Hang On! I came out of one dream and fell into another. Is the Story of 'INCEPTION' true. Is someone doing that to me now. Controlling my dreams. Trying to change my thoughts and make me believe I am somebody else. Pls let me sleep and wake up how I usually wake up. The person comes near & touches my face. Freaks! Its real. She is real. This ain't a dream anymore. I am scared to ask now who is she. What if she is actually my wife. I cant ask my wife "are you my wife?".

I gather some strength and courage & manage to say this - "What happened last night? I am not able to remember". "Nothing, Usual.. You watched TV, then you were stuck onto your stupid laptop till late & now you don't want to get up". OK the sound of that is familiar. That is so me but what that doesn't answer my question exactly. OK, here I try to be more specific and ask - "What were you doing last night" (impressing on the fact that I dint ask What were you doing here tonight). "Nothing, usual.. I was sitting with you for sometime, with you paying no attention on me and concentrating totally on your stupid movie. So, I finally decided to sleep. What else can I do when you are so engrossed in it". Did that answer my question. No, I guess. How do I try now. Finally, a thought comes up to my mind. Lets call a friend and ask him whats this all about. To my surprise, my phone is not to be seen. What? Another theft? Where is my phone I wonder. Shall I ask her. I go out and see HER playing with it. OK, would that be rude to ask a lady to give back your phone to you. She might ask what do I need with the phone, I just got up. I am literally shivering, hands gone Ice Cold. I rush to loo. My favorite place in the world. Let me remember where am I missing things.

"Aaah!" - I say. What a relief. It was as if I had been constipated for long. And that wakes me up from my half sleep. I come out. Refreshed. See a lady standing, I re-collect her as my wife. Suddenly a weird grin breaks out on my face. I decide to give her a hug. Go inside my room. And laugh at myself.

First thing, I saw a dream inside a dream or may be two dreams while sleeping, and secondly it was all happening while sitting in a Toilet (or should I say while Shitting in a Toilet). Life sometimes has good sense of humor. Oh Lord! Are these supposed to be nightmares or just reminder to reality. I don't know. Lets just call them Flashbacks of a Bachelor.

Cheers to all Bachelors. Life is one. Live it while you can, after marriage its all about realizing that you can sleep at places where you cant even imagine (Or shall I say your dream at places where you shit).

:-)

Some Letters Incomplete, Some Mails Unsent..

Hi,

So the small token of my due respect has reached you. Its just a token of sheer love and my real thankfulness for what all you have done and given to me in last 3 years or so. I really miss being with you. I wanted to give a much bigger one to you and that too in front of everyone, guess my destiny had different plans. Anyways, hope u liked it.

Pls don't think of returning the favor by sending me something or doing something stupid. Its just that I really wanted to thank you from the core of my heart. I couldn't find anything better or rather couldn't even think of it. Tried various stuffs but this was like a dream to present you a ring, of course a much better one. Still I thought this would be the best option to go for it. Anyways, so now you are entering a new life for which the foundation has already been laid. I wish you all the very best, May all the success and the happiness come in your life.

You always deserved better and so you got. Happy that pain like me is out of your life now. I am not sure how to react but a part of myself is happy to see you doing all that you have done for your family. Trust me, you are something special. I don't know if anyone else realizes it but you really are. You were someone special for me, and will always remain like that.

The time we spent together, I really miss it. Well I was never born all that lucky so I just thank God and You for giving me such beautiful days of my life. But regrets are there of course for letting you down and notwithstanding you in tough times unlike you did to me. Well, am sorry for that. But as usual I take it for granted that you don't bother and you will forgive me.

The ring selection was not all that easy. I had to actually go to various places to search for one. I had selected actually another one which was in white gold. But when I went again after few days to finally buy it I don't know how the price went out my range. Its not that I couldn't buy it for you, its just that I fought with them for lying and then I didn't want to buy that brand itself. That is when I actually decided not to buy off the ring. But then I forced myself somehow to CARBON and got this one. Its a very cheap ring and very light. Went alone so couldn't even try on someone as you wouldn't have liked it. I just hope it fits you in any of the fingers. If it doesn't I am sure you would find a way to make its best of use or you can give it someone close to you.

Would have loved to give it to you myself, but I guess it seems unlikely now. I don't want to bother you more as I have already done enough to hurt you. Anyways enough of boring you again. Sorry for what I couldn't be and what I couldn't do for you. Trust me grudge would remain forever and if anytime, anywhere you feel like asking me something (which is highly unlikely I know) I would be waiting. And also Thanks again for all the love and the care. I respect your feelings. And the love remains in the heart.

So take care. May you get more than what you deserve and the showers full of life and happiness continue in your life. All the best to you and your new life. All the best to your lucky one..!! :)

With Love,
Your Truly,
Idiot..!!

Just Another Random Thought..!!

What is life? Now that's one heck of a question. Nobody can define and whosoever tries, gives it his own version. Happy people describe it to be full of colors, joys, wonderful moments or whatever they perceive directly relating to their happiness. Sad people call it otherwise. Full of pain, heartaches and some good people even go on & say 'Life is a Bitch'. Well, surely a nice way to put it. At the end of it say whatever you want, the point is for all of you, me , we - its only one life and we all know its not a dress rehearsal. So, we basically live how and what we make of it. If we cant make it the way we want it, then at least we can think the way we want to make it. At least that's a good start. Won't it give the same joy? OK, here's something to think about. Whats the difference in the happiness (or joy) of a person when they comes to know that he / she is going to be father / mother & when they actually hold the baby in their arms for the first time. Well if we go to the very beginning, its Just another Random Thought. It starts with you thinking to have a baby then going ahead & conceiving one & finally delivering one. The thought itself is so nice, wonderful or rather even more beautiful.

Whats the difference in the happiness of any person who blushes at the very thought of getting married and is actually overjoyed when its fixed and super excited when he/she knows that they won't be lonely anymore rather there will be someone waiting for them when they return to home from now on. Just a Random Thought again.

Everybody these days seems to be having this same question on their faces, in their hearts. How many of us are actually born to be what we are? Did Dr. A.P.J. Abdul Kalam think, the day he started thinking, that he will be the President of the country. Did Sachin Tendulkar know that he would go on and become legend in the Arena of Cricketing World when he was just few months old. Life gives us so much. There is so much to take from it. Why can't we just exploit it. Ever heard someone saying I am happy 'cos I just exploited ('raped' in its crude sense) my life and got most tastiest juice ever possible. Just another Freakin' Random Thought again, Isn't it?

Life is same for everyone. Nobody asks you to live it in a particular manner. Nobody forces you to do things you do everyday. It just comes out of habit or nature or may be the need of that particular time. Here are few lines which have been doing rounds and rounds for quite sometime now. Just Another Random Thought. Well I am happy 'cos I finally write it down. Even more happier that a couple of people would actually read it as well. And some might actually appreciate.

Here you go -

थी क्या बात उस हसीन मुलाक़ात की ,
जब तुमने आकर दी थी दस्तक दिल में ;
थी क्या बात उस बेगैरत रात की ,
जब डूब गयी थी ज़िन्दगी ग़म में ;
और क्या है बात इस मुलाक़ात की ,
जब दिल फिर से रुक गया तुम्हे देख कर ;
और क्या है बात इस छोटी सी बात की ,
जब एक लफ्ज़ न निकला धडकनें सुन कर ;
हाँ आज भी याद है मुझे वो मुस्कान ,
हाँ आज भी याद है मुझे Sec 8 की वो दूकान ;
बैठ कर किसी ने समझाया था मुझे प्यार का सबक ,
पर नहीं माना दिल और लुट ही गया उसी ज़ालिम पर ;
अब सोचता हूँ क्या कसूर था मेरा ,
नहीं पुकारा उन्हें फिर से ये गुरूर था मेरा ;
आज रहते हैं वो उस मोहल्ले में ,
जहाँ कभी जाने से रोका करते थे ;
लगती है प्यारी वो गलियां भी ,
जिन्हें देख कर मूंह फेरा करते थे ...!!

There's more and I am sure it will come out even more better. The point is why not just bring some wonderful positive energies to our lives. Lets just try to do something which will give us a sense of happiness from inside, not to show it to someone. A real joy far away from the materialistic hypocrisy of this world. Lets just try to see others happy. Lets forget what we are facing and try to see if we can be part of someone Else's joy or a reason anyhow somehow. Trust me Dear Friends it gives you even more pleasure than making yourself happy with something. Try It.. But then again Its Just Another Bloody Random Thought.. I leave it to one and all.

With this Cheers to Life..!!

In the End..

The Last Step -

And then came a voice from the loudspeaker installed on every part of the Airport where a living being can possibly be: - "Passengers flying through Spicejet SG201 to Pune are requested to proceed for boarding. Have a pleasant flight!"

Suddenly, my hurt sunk. It was as if I am losing myself. But NO! I had to control myself. I had to be strong. I had to prove to someone that I can be happy. I had promised, after all, that I will be.

The Leap Forward -

And then she started walking towards the Check-in Counters. "please turn once" I thought. Feelings getting even stronger and saying "please come back to me". Oh God, if only I could had one last moment with her. But no destiny had already decided which path to take. And it was leading directly from outside of the Airport to check-in counters via Security line to Final Boarding into Airbus 380.

I could not turn back till she disappeared completely. Eyes kept searching her till the last possible point where they could. I was not able to believe that a day would come when I will bid a final good bye to someone who I had dreamt to spend my entire life with. But as I said Destiny had already decided to take a different path. So Be it!

The First Step -

And then I hugged her. It was the moment. The time had come. "please take care of yourself. for yourself and for me. I'm sorry again" - She said. I was quite. Dead silent. I didn't say anything. I did not have anything to say. Or shall I say I didn't know what to say. Heart was saying talk to her. Stop her. Mind was arguing "and what exactly do u plan to say to make her stay Mr. Heart??".

Finally we saw each other. My eyes just didn't want to let her go. My heart was thumping at its highest as if I was running some 100mtr dash and have to break the world record. No!, it cant be happening. No!, something was wrong. Yes!, She was leaving me FOREVER!

I still remember the wonderful gust of wind which changed my life few years ago. And I will certainly remember this day when all the air in the universe seemed to have left my part of the world. At night, cool breezes have stopped giving the same chill, The moon's coolness don't take me into dreamland anymore. Yeah, one sure thing is I have started talking to myself even more. I have few things left unanswered. I surely must remember. And I do..

And so it happened, in the end... We finally took our own path. You left for your better good, I came to back to my sad half.

On that note. Cheers to life!! :-) I'll be back soon...

The year that was & the one which has come..!!

So I made a New Year resolution, to blog more often (and to apologize for the prolonged absence late last year, during which may be a couple of you apparently came, repeatedly, looking for updates. Sorry — life happened).

On second thought, that last line was written on my notepad file 3 days ago, I have never made any resolutions, in fact I am not a resolution making types. I make resolutions every single day and make sure they are not followed for even the very next day. But yeah, so called Year 2010 has happily passed away. Some say it was natural. My deepest condolences to another year who passed away 'naturally'. A lot happened, a lot more could have happened (avoided), a lot more will happen, probably already waiting to happen.

Had to make couple of huge decisions. One made, other still not. The one which was made, wasn't all that great. Changed my job. Or shall I say changed my first job. Actually was left with no option but to look out for something before being declared an 'outlaw' in my own company among my own people, who still, by the way, say I am a good guy. Well, thanks a lot but why is it then I am the one who was... Lets not get into details of that. As I wrote earlier Life Happened. Joined a so called Foreign Company (bank to be precise). Well, Oh Hell yeah! Its completely different experience. From 'Ties' to 'daily shaves' to wearing 'suits' on occasions (if not daily), everything changed to great extent. Life became like that of a celebrity. I had never been so sophisticated in life & I am actually surprised with myself. I mean wearing a 'tie' everyday. Never tried it after 9th standard in school also. I mean I was supposed to be one of the bright stars among the lot, so it was pardoned for me. College life had been casual as well. Probably I wore tie only twice in 2 years of my MBA. Once during a presentation where it was made compulsory to wear a tie (as that crazy teacher assigned some marks to so called 'dressing sense') & other during an interview. Well, I don't have a problem in wearing ties, in fact it improves your personality, but problem comes when you are supposed to shave your skin off your face everyday. I mean how is that possible. The moment I put that razor blade on my face both of them start giving weird expressions. My face & the razor. The face says - "Please don't scratch me off. I am gonna be a vital element of your personality. And mind you Mr. Vikas you are still single". Honestly I have no answer to that. And then the Razor says - "I don't have any problems with you rubbing me anywhere, your face or your ass, but give me something to remove also, for instance say hair?" Anyways this is so called supposed to be a MNC culture. My Arse!

Well, in all life was full of some light, some heavy, some uncontrollably sad & some superbly awesome moments. Hope the new year brings even more of joy & happiness and life continues the way it has so far. Only wish, May it becomes little less of complex and little more of understandable. I don't expect it to get easier. :-)

Aah!! Now to the decision which was left undecided. Probably you would have already guessed. Well, in all possibilities I had somehow thought I would get to chose someone special this year. Of course looking at how things started & how they turned out at home made it even more obvious that this is gonna be THE year. In simple words "Bakra Katne ki Baari aa Gayi Thi". Well, not sure whether it was good or not but I haven't still found someone worth sharing the life with. Or shall I say nobody else found me worth giving their valuable self. I would simply blame it on family. When you don't show interest they keep 'bambooing' your arse to say yes. And then when finally you say yes, all becomes so quite. :-) Not that I am so desperate but yes everything has some fun attached to it. I also wanted to be a part of fun. Looking at some girls. Meeting some more. Discussing 'Do you know how to cook food' 'Do you have any problem staying far away from your family' 'Do you think I am too thin for you' 'Do you have someone else in your life' 'What is your qualification' (I hope that qualifies for a question to be asked on such situations). All these questions are so meaningful at this juncture, aren't they? Which otherwise irritate you in normal life. Well, enough said about this, lets hope the new year brings new opportunities, new beginnings and new life. Its good to share your life and yourself with someone. God also never lived alone. In fact he had many partners to share himself with. Nothing wrong in choosing one for yourself. Of course then again sense of closeness, sharing, caring, loving, and all those wonderful feelings makes life even more special.

So Hope is the word. Lets see what and how it turns out to be. Amen!!

Its Been So Long..

"Its Been So Long That I haven't seen your face" (of course this is the song by Akon). And very much of course I know that very well. But still , something today told me to actually think & write what I have been missing for quite sometime now. In fact I mention 'Its been so Long..' in almost each of my post, well my last post starts with this. :)

Lets think:

- Its Been So Long that I actually went to a roof top & felt that lovely moon & light cool breeze in the night playing not only with your body (hands, face, legs, hair, all included) but with your soul as well. That same moon which has given so many poets, lyricist something to write for. That same breeze which, when I used to be a kid, played for hours without even knowing about it. I really miss standing on the terrace just like that (especially when there used to be a power cut at home) wondering what world is like. Trees making sounds, vehicles trying to buzz all around, life's true sense in just a small thing called BREEZE. Ohh I just love & miss those wonderful nights. Even more those nights used to be wonderful because those power cuts used to save me from studying. Parents also can't say anything. :) Lovely feel isn't it.

- Its Been So Long that I fought with someone I love the most. Those crazy, stupid fights with mom, those irritated gestures when my best friend used to bug me, those silly looks when my sister always gets best of me when everybody (esp my father) used to take her favor, the wrestling with my grandfather, sometimes serious and sometimes just to bug grandma. I mean what is life all about if not all this. How lucky a person is to experience all the relationships possible, how wonderful it is to feel there are few people who inspite of being bad, scary, funny or whatever without giving a damn about anything still care & love you so much unconditionally. And I mean literally.

- Its Been So Long that I have been away from home now. I mean lets count, almost 5 years now. How badly I longed to get out of house back then, spending 20 years of my life with family, listening to how much fun others (friends & relatives) used to have when in hostel / work, away from home. Nobody to tell you about Do's & Dont's, Nobody to tell you no shit. Just you, your life & whatever you make of it. And now things come back to same old place. Yes I have started missing my family. And I miss that special person even more.

- Its Been So Long that I enjoyed the RAIN. Just get out, not knowing where to go, may be shout in front of your friends house. Ok let me ask you a simple thing. How many of you actually went to see a friend & shouted with his / her name to call him instead of just ringing the door bell. Well, this was my way of calling my friends. I never believed in ringing bells. Then may be just go for a ride. Enjoy the rain. Jump, Dance, walk, do anything. Follow the frogs. Try to jump in the places where water has clogged due to low lying surface. Its Been Really Really Long.

- Its Been So Long that I went 5 Kms just to eat 'Gol-Gappe' or 'Tikki Chaat'. I mean the craze for all such things, sometimes I wonder, has it died or its just that life has started sucking on whatever comes its way. No, this is not what we expected of it. In fact I try to keep my life the same way it used to be few days / few months / few years back. But I guess it all changes because people around you change. As a famous saying goes - 'Only thing constant in this world is Change'. No you can't bend me Mr. Change. Not Yet. I am still strong sweetheart. Bring it on.

- Its Been So Long since I wrote something on / off my Blog. I mean I try to write. Just being a lazy bum that I am & the super duper think switch never lets me do something productive. I mean these things are like Alien to me. Thinking, doing something productive. But certainly there are few things which do matter a lot in life & I think you cant help but to think about them. In fact I happen to see my old diary from 10 years back. Crazy stuff I had written back then. laughed my ass out. Still wondering how innovative I was that time itself. Guess nobody realized the brilliance of my brain. :)

- Lastly Its Been So Long that I have been wondering what / what not to do with my life. And I guess that thing needs to be addressed separately & some other time. Another 'Its Been So Long..' may be.

I know its been a Gyan session in this post. In fact there is quote which says - 'Its better to be quite & called a fool, rather than speaking and removing all the doubts'. I mean WHO CARES? I think otherwise. I always had. Think of me as fool or not I give a damn. Its either you say it or just STFU..