Some Letters Incomplete, Some Mails Unsent..

Hi,

So the small token of my due respect has reached you. Its just a token of sheer love and my real thankfulness for what all you have done and given to me in last 3 years or so. I really miss being with you. I wanted to give a much bigger one to you and that too in front of everyone, guess my destiny had different plans. Anyways, hope u liked it.

Pls don't think of returning the favor by sending me something or doing something stupid. Its just that I really wanted to thank you from the core of my heart. I couldn't find anything better or rather couldn't even think of it. Tried various stuffs but this was like a dream to present you a ring, of course a much better one. Still I thought this would be the best option to go for it. Anyways, so now you are entering a new life for which the foundation has already been laid. I wish you all the very best, May all the success and the happiness come in your life.

You always deserved better and so you got. Happy that pain like me is out of your life now. I am not sure how to react but a part of myself is happy to see you doing all that you have done for your family. Trust me, you are something special. I don't know if anyone else realizes it but you really are. You were someone special for me, and will always remain like that.

The time we spent together, I really miss it. Well I was never born all that lucky so I just thank God and You for giving me such beautiful days of my life. But regrets are there of course for letting you down and notwithstanding you in tough times unlike you did to me. Well, am sorry for that. But as usual I take it for granted that you don't bother and you will forgive me.

The ring selection was not all that easy. I had to actually go to various places to search for one. I had selected actually another one which was in white gold. But when I went again after few days to finally buy it I don't know how the price went out my range. Its not that I couldn't buy it for you, its just that I fought with them for lying and then I didn't want to buy that brand itself. That is when I actually decided not to buy off the ring. But then I forced myself somehow to CARBON and got this one. Its a very cheap ring and very light. Went alone so couldn't even try on someone as you wouldn't have liked it. I just hope it fits you in any of the fingers. If it doesn't I am sure you would find a way to make its best of use or you can give it someone close to you.

Would have loved to give it to you myself, but I guess it seems unlikely now. I don't want to bother you more as I have already done enough to hurt you. Anyways enough of boring you again. Sorry for what I couldn't be and what I couldn't do for you. Trust me grudge would remain forever and if anytime, anywhere you feel like asking me something (which is highly unlikely I know) I would be waiting. And also Thanks again for all the love and the care. I respect your feelings. And the love remains in the heart.

So take care. May you get more than what you deserve and the showers full of life and happiness continue in your life. All the best to you and your new life. All the best to your lucky one..!! :)

With Love,
Your Truly,
Idiot..!!

Just Another Random Thought..!!

What is life? Now that's one heck of a question. Nobody can define and whosoever tries, gives it his own version. Happy people describe it to be full of colors, joys, wonderful moments or whatever they perceive directly relating to their happiness. Sad people call it otherwise. Full of pain, heartaches and some good people even go on & say 'Life is a Bitch'. Well, surely a nice way to put it. At the end of it say whatever you want, the point is for all of you, me , we - its only one life and we all know its not a dress rehearsal. So, we basically live how and what we make of it. If we cant make it the way we want it, then at least we can think the way we want to make it. At least that's a good start. Won't it give the same joy? OK, here's something to think about. Whats the difference in the happiness (or joy) of a person when they comes to know that he / she is going to be father / mother & when they actually hold the baby in their arms for the first time. Well if we go to the very beginning, its Just another Random Thought. It starts with you thinking to have a baby then going ahead & conceiving one & finally delivering one. The thought itself is so nice, wonderful or rather even more beautiful.

Whats the difference in the happiness of any person who blushes at the very thought of getting married and is actually overjoyed when its fixed and super excited when he/she knows that they won't be lonely anymore rather there will be someone waiting for them when they return to home from now on. Just a Random Thought again.

Everybody these days seems to be having this same question on their faces, in their hearts. How many of us are actually born to be what we are? Did Dr. A.P.J. Abdul Kalam think, the day he started thinking, that he will be the President of the country. Did Sachin Tendulkar know that he would go on and become legend in the Arena of Cricketing World when he was just few months old. Life gives us so much. There is so much to take from it. Why can't we just exploit it. Ever heard someone saying I am happy 'cos I just exploited ('raped' in its crude sense) my life and got most tastiest juice ever possible. Just another Freakin' Random Thought again, Isn't it?

Life is same for everyone. Nobody asks you to live it in a particular manner. Nobody forces you to do things you do everyday. It just comes out of habit or nature or may be the need of that particular time. Here are few lines which have been doing rounds and rounds for quite sometime now. Just Another Random Thought. Well I am happy 'cos I finally write it down. Even more happier that a couple of people would actually read it as well. And some might actually appreciate.

Here you go -

थी क्या बात उस हसीन मुलाक़ात की ,
जब तुमने आकर दी थी दस्तक दिल में ;
थी क्या बात उस बेगैरत रात की ,
जब डूब गयी थी ज़िन्दगी ग़म में ;
और क्या है बात इस मुलाक़ात की ,
जब दिल फिर से रुक गया तुम्हे देख कर ;
और क्या है बात इस छोटी सी बात की ,
जब एक लफ्ज़ न निकला धडकनें सुन कर ;
हाँ आज भी याद है मुझे वो मुस्कान ,
हाँ आज भी याद है मुझे Sec 8 की वो दूकान ;
बैठ कर किसी ने समझाया था मुझे प्यार का सबक ,
पर नहीं माना दिल और लुट ही गया उसी ज़ालिम पर ;
अब सोचता हूँ क्या कसूर था मेरा ,
नहीं पुकारा उन्हें फिर से ये गुरूर था मेरा ;
आज रहते हैं वो उस मोहल्ले में ,
जहाँ कभी जाने से रोका करते थे ;
लगती है प्यारी वो गलियां भी ,
जिन्हें देख कर मूंह फेरा करते थे ...!!

There's more and I am sure it will come out even more better. The point is why not just bring some wonderful positive energies to our lives. Lets just try to do something which will give us a sense of happiness from inside, not to show it to someone. A real joy far away from the materialistic hypocrisy of this world. Lets just try to see others happy. Lets forget what we are facing and try to see if we can be part of someone Else's joy or a reason anyhow somehow. Trust me Dear Friends it gives you even more pleasure than making yourself happy with something. Try It.. But then again Its Just Another Bloody Random Thought.. I leave it to one and all.

With this Cheers to Life..!!